Thursday, January 30, 2014

Sometimes your baby makes the type of mess...

That requires a dog to lick him clean.

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Wednesday Style Challenge - Statement Necklace

Jacket - H&M, Tank - F21, Pants - Loft, Shoes - Carlos, Necklace - Ebay

Another REALLY cold day so pictures inside again. It's pretty hard to find a place with space and lighting so, I apologize for the awesome baby gate in the shot, lol.

Wednesdays are style challenge days and today's challenge was a "statement necklace". Easy enough! Bubbles are pretty easy to throw on with any outfit. I got this cute cardi/jacket from H&M on sale for $10 and I'm sure it'll get a ton of wear in my closet.

Enjoy your HUMP DAY!

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Pinspiration Tuesday - Layered Tights

Dress: H&M, Scarf: F21, Magenta tights: Target, Black tights: F21, Boots: Carlos

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Folks, it's 14 degrees here. FOURTEEN. Ain't no way I'm taking pictures outside! And there was no way I was leaving the house this AM without making sure at least my feet were somewhat warm. My friend Carylee over at More Pieces of Me layers her fun tights frequently (check out her blog post on tights layering HERE) and I decided to give it a try to bring some more color to my outfit. So far, I've had 3 people ask me where I got my tights - WIN! Now if only the underlayer would stop trying to roll...

Monday, January 27, 2014

Manic Monday - Pattern Mixing

Cardigan - F21, Gingham shirt - NY&Co, Jeans - Target, Boots - Nine West, Necklace - F21

We finally got over a 2 week cold that circulated through our home and it feels great to be able to breathe out of both nostrils again. 

I decided to do a little pattern mixing today with my polka dot jeans & gingham shirt. I've gotten a ton of wear out of both pieces in the past and needed to mix stuff up in my closet again.

I'm linking up with More Pieces of Me & On the Daily Express for Manic Monday! Be sure to stop by and see what the other ladies are wearing today.

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Sunday, January 26, 2014

10 Months

So many new things happening this month. Seriously, he surprises me every single day with how much he learns and can do. It's AWESOME.

Like blowing mommy kisses:

*heart melted*

Monday, January 13, 2014

Manic Monday / Mustard Monday

Blazer - H&M, Top & Skirt - F21, Shoes - Carlos by Carlos Santana

After a very long week what felt like ONE GIANT 5 DAY MEETING, I'm finally back home to my baby & husband. Today felt like my first Monday of the new year so I decided to hit the ground running and I may have overdone it with a 13 hour workday. No worries... my overzealousness will subside before February hits :)

I'm linking up with More Pieces of Me & On the Daily Express for Manic Monday!

Friday, January 3, 2014

Month 9 Must Haves

#1 - Melissa & Doug Wooden Knob Puzzle - These puzzles are suggested for ages 1+ but Sebastian enjoys pulling the pieces off the board & knocking them together like cymbals. He also enjoys chewing on them :)

#2 - Funko Pop! Walking Dead Plush Dolls - We have referred to Sebastian as a zombie baby on many occasions - he likes making zombie noises, coming at you mouth open ready to bite your face, & dragging his body across the floor instead of crawling. Our friend Chris (who is a huge comic fan) bought these for Sebastian and he's been carrying them around since. Sometimes in his mouth, like a true zombie baby, lol.

#3 - Fisher Price Go Baby Go Poppity Pop Musical Dino - Grandma Alice got this for Sebastian for Christmas and he loves grabbing at the balls as they pop up. He loves to throw the balls and zombie drag himself after them. I will say that I do not love having to find them behind the couch.

#4 - First Years Toss & Go Straw Cups - I must have bought 6 different types of sippy cups and Sebastian didn't like any of them. My college roommate who is a mother of 2 little ones suggested trying a straw cup and sure enough, it worked. He literally figured out how to do it within 3 sips and now he'll drink water from these.

#5 - Leap Frog Learn & Groove Musical Table - Sebastian is learning how to pull to stand so this activity table helps motivate him & keep him entertained while he stretches his legs. The music is VERY annoying though.

#6 - L'Occitane Shea Butter Hand Cream - This one is obviously a product for mom. Between the cold temperatures and washing bottles, my hands have been horrendously dry. This cream is moisturizing and doesn't have a strong scent.

Thursday, January 2, 2014

I need to get deep for a second

I caught myself telling a recently married friend that if I could go back in time, I wouldn't have children. I said it without thinking, without explaining what I really meant. I reflected on my statement and it bothered me that those words came out of my mouth because they are not entirely true.

I love my son with every cell in my body and I can't imagine my life without him. He has brought me more joy than I ever thought I could feel but this road into motherhood has not been an easy one for me.

Sebastian's birth scared me and while the recovery was easier than I expected, I was riddled with anxiety as soon as we brought him home. Was he getting enough breastmilk? Did he still look yellow? Was he breathing? What if I fell asleep while holding him? Did we swaddle him too tight? Was I supporting his neck and head the right way? Did he bond with me? Will he develop the right way? Will he be bullied in school? Would he have acne as a teen? What if I just gave birth to a sociopath? I found myself too scared to go down the stairs while holding him because I had visions of dropping him. I was not comfortable leaving the house. Breastfeeding was kicking my ass. I was pretty much a fucking mess.

After about 6 weeks, we started to get into a groove and he started to sleep for longer stretches. I wasn't as sleep deprived and the anxiety settled into a rage. Most of it geared towards Sergio, some of it towards my mother. Anything Serg did could set me off - a shower that went too long, the fact that he buttered his roll while Sebastian cried, mowing the lawn with his head phones on, his business trip to Chicago. Things that made no sense to a logical human being made me stew and daydream of smothering him with a pillow while he snored away in our bed as our baby screamed in the next room.

I don't know when but the irrational anger towards my kind, supportive, patient husband who is an amazing father subsided. And turned into sadness. I mourned the first 6 weeks of Sebastian's life that I couldn't enjoy like I thought I should. I mourned the easy breezy, fun relationship I once had with my husband. I mourned my independence, my efficiency, my success at work, my organized home - the control I thought I once had over my life. I felt like no one would understand me. I felt like I had no time to be so sad and no time to think of ways to fix it. I felt like I had no reason to feel sad to begin with. I felt embarrassed to bring it up to my doctor and always answered her "How are you feeling?" with "Great!". I felt pretty lost and I mostly did it in silence.

That sadness has subsided but hasn't gone away. There are days I don't feel it at all. There are days it comes in full force. This mother thing is hard. No one prepares you for it and I sure as hell wasn't ready. But my kid isn't going to wait for me to feel ready. I just hope he's ok with me figuring it out along the way and fucking up sometimes.

So Shannon - I take it back. If I could go back in time, I would do this 100 times over. Because despite how hard this has been so far (and I'm sure it'll get harder, then easier, then harder again) Serg & I made a perfectly awesome little human being that we get to watch grow and learn every day. I'd do it 100 times over because otherwise I wouldn't get to see how excited he is first thing in the morning, or watch him figure out how to move his body to get places, or hear him crack up at Fifi, or go into his room after he's been asleep for hours just to stroke his hair one last time. I'd do it 100 times over because it's the only way I'd know I can handle much more than I ever thought I could.


Wednesday, January 1, 2014


May 2014 bring tons of happiness!